2/18/03
The raging snowstorm went silently into the night. Left more than 2 feet of nature's fluffy white batting...appears as if the earth is wrapped in soft ermine fur. Morning sitting was very focused. Not even "What am I?" Surprisingly, leg pain lessened under these conditions and time seemed imperceptible. If you want to understand the realm of the Buddha, keep a mind which is clear like space. What does it mean?
...Understand. Understand. Clear. Clear. What does this mean?
...If you completely attain the True Way of not thinking, it is like space, clear and void. What does this mean?
...The spirit remains clear and light. What does this mean?
…Anger/frustration about everyday thinking….enlightenment disease
Day went by slowly. Slogged through 20" snow during walk. Eve brought excruciating pain (knees)— almost to point of screaming. Midnight practice was brutal....discovered that Kyol Che must be at midway point as they were practicing, too.