02/21/03
1:30 AM (before bedtime).... Midnight practice is a physiological trial. Threw my feverish mind into bowing and sitting.... at first furiously chanting the 10,000 H&Es until finally able to return to counting my breath.
Very tired for morning practice. It occurred to me later that I forgot the “Four Great Vows” before bowing...then realized much later that I never lit candles during chanting. A sense of determination pervaded the day... keep clear. Worked like a beaver on the house.
4:30 PM (break before dinner): Gradually cleaning, packing, and moving a few things to the car.
6 PM. Suspect this will be my last entry. Supposed to meet Dae Kwang Sunim