02/20/03
Felt ill at start of midnight practice.... sweating and slightly nauseous. Only go straight and soon sleeping again. Midnight practice is strange... no special energy but much resistance. Something about overcoming Karmic resistance about things not pleasurable but important. Nonetheless, every opportunity to practice is a gift.
Got lost in the Bell Chant...probably the first time in 1000 mornings. Very warm day with snow soft and melting.... the sky so blue, the willow bare... sunshine everywhere. Glory!